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hi new acquaintances

yet again I broke down &cried in his car last night, for the second time this week. I was still trying my best to engage in a normal conversation with him discussing bout dinner places after he picked me up from work & next min my eyes begin to well up and I started tearing. which leads to an hour of mess.

the downfall at work followed by the betrayal of my trusted friend got me crushed.

it got me 1.5years to truly unds that there’s almost NO genuine friends in a sales job no matter how selfless and genuine you are while maintaining & building this friendship it’s worthless when the other party doesn’t appreciate and sees it the same.

youre their best friend when they are not doing as good and you pulled them along with you but when you are no longer of benefit and at your lowest they step you over, they leave you behind. that’s reality and my biggest lesson learnt.

My ego forbids me from showing how devastated and affected I am at work, i put up a brave front for everyone else to see, but when I see him I let loose and cried. no longer guarded.

ytd I was in such a horrendous state I went to his place instead for awhile with my swollen eyes. changed out of tt prideful career woman attire into his big tee and casual fbt. dragged my feet into his shower room and was slowly removing my horrid smudged eye makeup when he came in with a little stool. saying he will shampoo my hair for me (:

it’s a little secret I’ve never told anyone. ever since I was little I’ve always like having my mum to shampoo my hair & I’ll still bug her to do it these days when I’m having a bad day or when im extremely upset, call me a spoilt brat for all I care but each time it makes me feel really loved.

so by the end of 10 mins (with abit of a complimentary shoulder massage), we both had our clothes drenched. Gladly I had a towel around me unlike him who was really soaking wet it’s hilarious hah but I really like tt feeling.

I did the remaining washup while he cooked noodles for me cause I was famished. then he sat down & blow dry my hair for me like how I would do to my little paw friend at home (: it’s just little gestures but I felt loved. truly loved (: and I know I can pull through WHATEVER as long as he’s with me.

he is not gonna get to read this I know, cause he doesn’t know I’ve got a tumblr but all in all I’m truly thankful, blessed and grateful. I love you (: